Whoa

It's not the same anymore, she isn't the same anymore. We're not friends, we're ex-lovers and her entire life has been dedicated to hurting me. Lying to me on purpose both in and out of the relationship. She's threatening her own life at times with her ridiculous actions and I can't live with it anymore. I don't want to hear about all the men you're sleeping with. I'm fine with you sleeping with them, but please, for my sake, out of respect, stop telling me. It's painful, horrible painful, and all she does is continue her way. Soon I'll move away from it, but a few months is honestly not soon enough. She attempts to touch me and my skin crawls. "Do you hate me?" she asks.
I haven't had the heart to tell her, but I honestly do. Honestly.

Heh

It's funny how most nights I spend my time pondering how I work. I've done this for far too long with far too little results. I mean yes, I have gained a greater understanding of how to control my anger; and yes, I've become more in touch with my feelings (especially toward myself), but I have yet to fix ANYTHING. Is there even fixing to be done?

Follower(s)! I have a new follower, it may be a family member but she still counts :p

I've been gone sooo long!

Woo! So I'm back, no one's reading this to care, but I am!!! Lol....after a long period of time I've lost my boyfriend of 10 months, my job and my will for life. Then I gained new friends and a new will to live. Woot.

WOO!!!

I love my new job!! I'm the newest security guard for Scottsdale Quarter mall. YAY!! IPC is an awesome corporation to work for!!!

Batgirl (*Spoilers for those who don't know batman movies*)

Okay, so last night my boyfriend and I watched Batman....Forever? The one with Mr.Freeze and Poison Ivy, well whatever. So, toward the end Robin and Batgirl are trying to recalibrate a laser and the positioning of four satellites, she looks at batman and says "It'll take about 1 minute to re-position the satellites." And HOW would she know this? Is she a rocket scientist? Maybe she's been brushing up on astro-physics? Or is there a little sticker on it that says "satellites will take approximately 1 minute to re-position"? She didn't even graduate college! She dropped out!! And she also knows how to street ride motorcycles, though not hard. Little thief goes, steals Dick's (Robin) nicest bike, and loses it off the edge of a damned ruined bridge. NOT HERS!! As you can tell, she aggravates me. Little bitch. Thank you.

Needing a laptop

I do so wish I had a laptop. I would love to keep my non-existent readers up to date on my random blatherings. I don't even think that's a real word, but I'll use it anyway. I have to use my friend's computer to get on the Internet. Which sort of sucks. Though when I'm over at her house I spend 99.9% of my time playing co-op FPS (for those of you UN-savvy to the gaming world, cooperative first-person shooter). We beat Resident Evil 5 the other day in 2hrs 38mins 03secs. There are only 6-3 scenes and at the end, if beaten in under 5 hours, you receive unlimited rocket launcher ammo. Minus about 30 minutes from the total allotted time and you'll have the exact moment we received unlimited RL ammo. Apparently the game new it wasn't going to take 3 more hours to beat one boss scene (each boss scene averaging about 20 minutes). It was amazing, especially considering the mass amounts of loot and S ranks achieved. All in all, pretty damn good, though I digress. Really need a lap-top, for more reasons than this ridiculous blog.